Manic-apathetic (and my mumbling)

Something I've noticed in my life is that I'm a little manic sometimes and fairly mellow a lot of the other times and very rarely depressed. It seems like I physically can't hold an emotion for more than a couple of weeks. After a couple of weeks I go back to being content.

Hence, over the summer I came to doubt the idea that happiness should be the ultimate goal of an individual. I don't know how others feel about this, but to me it was weird, at first, to think of happiness not being one's ultimate desire.
The whole concept of happiness not being important came from a very interesting, but a little bit annoying, book called "The Pursuit of Happiness" and, no, it wasn't the same thing as the movie. The author suggested something that had never even crossed my mind.. that maybe it wasn't abnormal for someone to not be happy.
It was kind of a weird and intriguing concept for me.
Now let me get this cleared up before I go on: I'm not saying that it shouldn't be concerning if someone is unhappy. To me there is a difference between being unhappy and not happy. To be unhappy is the opposite of happiness, while to not be happy is just that.. to not feel that sort of ecstatic feeling.
It seems like here in Utah people claim that there are only two states of being: happiness or misery. I've even had someone tell me that if one lives the gospel of Jesus Christ to its fullest measure, that it is impossible for one not to be happy. (Which I sincerely doubt and argued with him about for quite a while.. after all "Jesus Wept".. isn't that significant?)For a while I thought this way as well, but I rarely am in either of those extremes.. usually I just am and I'm fine with that until you bring it up. Then as I concentrate and try to be "happy" I tend to become very unhappy.
Perhaps Hawthorne was right that: "Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
Instead of happiness, I purposed that the goal of the individual should, in fact, be that they take up their "civic duty" and do something worthwhile for the World. This is, by far, the less selfish goal.
The idea itself is one that requires an intrinsic motivation for other people, however, one that is very hard for most people to have (myself included.) The idea purports that, in fact, none of us are doing service for anyone. There is no such thing as service. We are doing what we are supposed to be doing - nothing more.

This comes into major conflict with religious arguments, however. At first when I took the idea up I doubted anyone who made the argument that something was true because it made you feel happy. It actually turned into quite the angry debate.
I went on a long time this way and, yet, somehow I can't get myself to make the argument that happiness holds no validity in determining truth anymore.
And perhaps this is a crazy argument.. but there is something about feeling God that is undeniably happy. It doesn't seem to matter which religion's approach is being made to come to the reality of divinity.. but when one has that sort of mystic experience or the feeling of the spirit in Christianity one cannot deny that truth does bring happiness.

When I said in an earlier post that I've become very unsure about things lately I wasn't kidding.. The degree to which happiness should be the goal of one's life is something about which I simply have to say:
I don't know.